Wow so much time has passed since I wrote in this journal. It
happened. I ended my relationship with my bitch ex-girlfriend, and I
call her bitch because that is what she is. I knew since the very
first day I met her that she was not the faithful type, but I needed
her to rebound from my disastrous relationship with my ex-ex girlfriend. My ex-ex girlfriend is the only girl that has been fully exposed to the
receiving end of my BPD symptoms and had to suffer it full force and
effect. That was undoubtedly the most disastrous period of my life as
far as interpersonal relationships are concerned. She came as the rebound I needed she played her part and I do not regret any part of
the love we shared together, but eventually she begun noticing that
there was something terribly wrong with me and that exactly when I
decided to call it quit. It was simple all I had to do is wait for
her to make a mistake and take it as an excuse to dump her, it was
fairly easy because I have been setting her up for that moment since
the very first day we met.
The good news about all this is that looking back at it, I believe it
was not so bad, my relationship with her, I was very correct with her
almost all the time and never lost control of the situation except
for 2 or 3 times. My relationship with her is the proof that I can
handle myself in a relationship given I am with the right person,
which she was definitely not. Now we are really good friends we
talk, and she still wants to get back with me and keep insisting but
the current relationship that just ended experiment is definitely over for me, I have to find a new
young fresh and mysterious girl to play with again, I miss the
feelings now. I am sure I will meet someone shortly I can feel it in
my guts. Yep it go time again, I can't wait.
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